quitting is not, apart of the dream. .

the american boy,

who lives the american dream wondered today: if i were to give up, how would that effect my life. i know you always thought about what if i gave up and quit on anything. well, this case im talking about school. ever since like, my second year in high school, ive always had a thought in the back of my head, of quitting school. and not because of the social life or anything, it had to do with me learning. like, ive always thought i was the smart kid in the class who always understood the concept of the teachers teaching, but when i didnt understand something, that i have worked on for hours, i just gave up without any help. but when i came back to it, i understood my mistake and corrected it. but in the moment of giving up, i thought, this cant be possible, it should take this long to grasp the work, so maybe im dumb, stupid. but then when i can back to it, i didnt feel like a quitter. i see, that, my problem is, i stress too much about something the first time, then the second time, im smooth and grasp the work, like it was nothing but a piece of candy. if i would have gave up on school the first time, i probably wouldnt have the mind set, of going back and trying a second time. but in the trial and error, i left and came back the next day to figure it out.

my thoughts are really scrambled but, i am sure you understand why im trying to say...


i am just, the american boy, living the american dream